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Hiyooo~ I'm not in a big mood to type in Japanese today. Right now I'm watching Bijo Gaku~ The episodes where Eri, Jun, Captain, and Yurina are doing a BBQ~ It was the last Bijo Gaki that featured JunEri ;A;

So today didn't go as planned ); I did get my sammich, but my cousin ended up not hanging out with me orz I don't know why.He won't answer my text messages x_x oh well.

I'm afraid ;a; I know it won't hurt but I'm still scared! At 1:30pm I have an appointment to get a shot I need for college... ugh. Not looking forward to that. I hate hate hate needles and blood. Reasons why I didn't choose to be a nurse!

So, I think my left shoulder is a bit dislocated.  It's hard to explain though, but it just feels a bit weird is all.

My last post I talked about my old crush of 3 1/2, that was only during Freshmen year to the end of my Junior year. So, actually it's only like 3 years. I kind of liked 'em during Senior year, but I was too in love with my girlfriend at the time to even think of anyone else.

I'm kind of just sitting here and I hear my dog's tail just banging against my door, I'm here all confused. Then I hear my mom's room door close, oddly for some reason one of my mom's good friends is here. I ate her bread. I didn't know it was hers btw, I didn't even know she was here until my Mom told me so. Oh well, I ate it. Unless you want it back in vomit form, there is no way I can give it back.

It's been already a month, or so, since my old friends I made on skype began hating me :P Funny though. I did a lot of good things rather than bad, always being there when they needed someone to lean on. Giving advice, doing whatever they wanted me to. I make one mistake and boom, they all hate me. I don't care anymore, it shows just how much they took me for granted. Apparently, I'm just a two-faced, betraying, ass jerk. :P If that's really how they think of me after one screw up, then go ahead.

Honestly, no one understands what I've been through in my life. During school I always acted strong, not showing any weaknesses. That was my nature. I didn't want pity from my friends whom I wanted to protect. There has only been one person I ever showed my weak spots. Only one person who heard me cry or seen me in actual pain. Even to this day, even though she broke my heart, I trust her with my life. Even when I hurt her the most. She's the only person who never left me alone. I guess... that's why I love her so much. I treasure her a lot. Not as a lover, but as a human and a friend. Even the other person who I trusted a lot betrayed me and casted me aside.

I'm fine though :P I'll do what I did 4 years ago when my family was going through the roughest times. Morning Musume was the only thing that kept me happy. That kept me strong and just continue life, and soon enough it was on a stable path.

On the other note, I wonder what University has a good Japanese program. Once I get used to college, I want to transfer so that I can continue with my dream. :] Soooooooo~~~

Until next time! Ciaooooo :]

(btw, the title... I was thinking of Do [Kudou Haruka])