Why is it that I'm still stuck loving you? I told myself I won't have anymore regrets, but the more I think about it the more I regret everything. Here I am, loving you like an idiot but I know you've already forgotten everything we ever had. There aren't even the slightest bit of feelings that you had for me back then. Of course I know you sleep in silence, we slept together in call. I know you're cranky in the mornings right when you wake up, because I was already awake waiting for you. I started to remember that one time I fell asleep waiting for you to go to bed, you kept trying to send me messages but I never woke up, until you called me. You started to cry because you were scared I wasn't going to pick up the call. At that time you really did love me, didn't you? I really did mean the world to you, right? Everything back then feels like a dream. You made me really happy, you know that? Sure we had our problems, but that doesn't mean I wasn't happy with how we were. I feel like a big idiot, thinking that we would watch the next season of our show together. But I know that won't happen. We don't talk anymore, our relationship now is nothing more than an online friend. I forgotten how your voice sounds. Why did I have to love you more than I anticipated?
Why do I love you so much...?
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