What to do.

I don't know. I feel so stupid for continuing to act the way I want. I've been telling myself to just move on, but every time she does something that makes it harder to not think of her. I miss those times when you would text me until I went to sleep. I'd go lay in bed but I wouldn't fall asleep until hours later, now we only text when I'm at school or something. Why can't I just accept that fact we aren't together, as a couple. You keep leading me on, making me think you want to get back together, but in the end I just keep hurting myself. I don't know what to do anymore. I don't regret accepting you confession, but sometimes I wonder what would I have become if I just rejected you... Why am I so stupid, why can't I just forget about you and the feelings I have? I don't like this pain. What I regret is the fact I couldn't make you happy. No matter what I did, I always made you cry. When we first started dating you told me that I made you really happy and that you never felt depressed. Every time I remember you telling me that, I regret ever trying to gain my own happiness. I forgot that I only wanted you happy. Why did I have to fall in love with you this much? It was never my intention to love you as much as I do.